i found a grey hair in my beard just the other day, I turned 26 a couple months ago. Shaved it all immediately, now I look 20 again but I don't want to face the grey 

 

Anyone ever feel like they are not taken seriously because they have a mental disability? It feels like that with me sometimes. Like if I say I am serious about something, sometimes I feel like my mom doesn't think I am serious at all.

I know she means well, but I can't help but feel like that sometimes, like she knows what is best for me when in actuality I know what is best for me. Sorry, just a minor rant. XP

 

I grew a beard to make me look older. Everyone tells me I look 10 to 15 years younger with one.

I look better with a beard anyways.

 

I'm in a similar boat because I have depression and anxiety people tend to always think I'm overreacting and after the fact people have had to apologize because they "didn't realize it was that bad." Did I not tell you? Ugh. Keep doing you and always remember to rely on yourself and no one else because no one will ever understand you the way you do.

 

My sister is the same.

She had the gall to tell me to get over it because I'm not the only person with the same problem in the world.

Sure she have sympathy for a stranger having mental problems but not me? Her own brother? Fuck the bitch.

 

Been having stressful dreams that sometimes border on nightmares almost every night for about two weeks. I'm so freaking sick of waking up feeling mentally and emotionally exhausted

 

Ugh. My mom complains about my youngest sister not having a job and still living at home despite being in her mid-twenties and a college grade (with a completely useless degree). My mom also enables her despite the complaints... pays for everything for her, supports her ten cats, etc. So when we older siblings (long moved out and living our own lives) get sick of our mom bitching to us but not saying anything to the youngest one and we tell her how she's the real issue here for not showing any tough love, etc... we're the assholes? Yeah, okay.

 

I just lost my job.

 

The one benefit is that with all the people milking unemployment you should have no problem finding other work, and potentially accommodating your issues.

 

His excuse: budget cuts.

Business was booming. Such bullshit.

I've applied to other places. Now I just have to wait to see who bites.

 

Didn't you say your father owns the business?

 

Technically. Until my late friend's daughter turns 18. But the current manager was given authority on run the business by my friend's brother until he comes back and my dad doesn't want to cause a rift in their family.

I'm better off employed some place else.

 

Sorry to hear that, if they don't have unemployment insurance go get unemplyment. I figured this cheap ass I worked for was too cheap to pay for unemployment insurance (I was right) and by getting unemployment screwed him over pretty well.

Either way good luck getting a new job.

 

But what's the point of owning it if you can't make a few demands. Have him give you a 'consulting' position where you get a small paycheck for next to no work.

The company I work for, the CEO's kids are 'employees' but don't do jack & get a good salary.

 

Need to rant, but I can't rant everything due to board rules. So, I will condence everything.

Want to go to the Wisconsin Dells. We have rooms booked, days off requested and approved. It's booked for the week before my birthday. I'm all excited and ready to go. My mom comes in and says "let's see how this pans out" in regards to the You-Know-What going around. Fine, I can go for only one night. She then says "we can do a day trip to the Dells if this gets worse".

You know what I say to that? NO! A big fat N! O! I need to PHYSICALLY be away from my house for two nights, like as in, NOT HERE!!! NO DAY TRIPS! I am literally going STIR-CRAZY!!! And what is worse? This is BEFORE my birthday! So thanks, 'Rona, you ruined my birthday!!!!!!!          

I would say more, but board rules and all. Don't want to get in trouble.

 

Uncle's in the hospital with a degenerative tissue disease that is also harming his kidneys, and I, myself, have had extreme pain on my right ribs that just today developed into blisters.
So while everyone else has been catching the big C-19, I've probably went and got friggin' Shingles. Life's real fun, isn't it?
EDIT: Doctor confirmed it, it is Shingles.

 

Got a response from one of the places i applied a job to.

I was rejected.

3 to go.

Edit: I'm feeling depressed. But not suicidal or suicidal thoughts.

I just feel bummed out. I wanted to play the new Zelda game but I'm just not up to it.

 

I'm getting really fucking sick of stores being out of like everything I need. In the last 3 days I have gone to 3 Targets, 3 Walmarts, and a Kohls looking for a water filter and propane without success. Every store is out of every water filer I need and no one seems to even carry propane period. This is getting ridiculous! And it's not just those items, but even food items we want/need are not being stocked. WHAT THE FUCK!

 

Possibility of people hoarding again?

Could be one theory.

 

No idea, but I doubt water filters would be on people's hoard list and at every store I go to.