I wasn't sure where else to put this, and I didn't feel like it warranted a new thread. My uncle on my dad's side kicked himself off of the planet yesterday. Apparently he was in tremendous pain in his legs and couldn't stand it or even stand up anymore. I've only seen him a few times in my life, and the last time I wasn't too thrilled about it, so I have absolutely no idea how to feel. Dad would be furious if he knew that I told someone else because he doesn't process grief in a healthy way. He internalizes it, where it just continues to boil and fester. I tried to offer my condolences but I probably didn't phrase it well and he just gave me an odd look and walked out of the room. My late uncle lived in Columbus, Ohio, and had two children, both boys, who are my much older cousins whom I haven't seen in decades. He was married, and his wife, my aunt, is taking care of the arrangements. Apparently, he wanted to be cremated. It's not safe for us to travel there for a memorial service because of COVID-19, of course. It's a strange feeling, and I don't know what to do with it. I'll never see him again, and I don't know if I particularly wanted to. It's just now that any chance of that has been taken away that I guess that I kinda feel regretful about that.