I know I made a thread before about this, but I thought things would get better but they didn't. So I have lost all hope in life, no matter what I do no matter who I talk to, it seems like nothing will ever change. I've seen therapy groups, nothing, I've seen psychologist, nothing, I talked to hotlines, nothing, I talked to family and friends, nothing, I've been hospitalised again nothing. You see, I can't take it anymore, I can't...the pain will always be there, no matter I will never be happy, I will never find happiness again. I have nothing to live for anymore, nothing to look forward to, I am just turning in circles and running around like a headless chicken. The only way for me not to be in pain anymore, is to end it. I will tell my family about my plans and let them know to be prepared for what I am going to do.