Heh, I guess I'm at an age where they're just the same thing to me. Well, except I do know that Twitch is infinitely more embarrassing based on who/what I've seen talk about it. Oh and more loaded with rando dick bombing, apparently.

Nah, I don't believe in the blue text thing that, as far as can tell, only exists here. The right people get it  

 

yeah I don't get denigrating someone for making money off streaming. I get that it's easy to look at the money some of the most popular streamers make and think it's ridiculous, but I don't see them as being exploitative.

and the majority of these people aren't making a living off it. I have several friends who use Patreon, Twitch, and OnlyFans as ways to supplement the incomes from their "honest jobs". Maybe we shouldn't criticize the person who makes a bit of cash from streaming themselves gaming and instead criticize the economic conditions that push people to monetize/commodify their hobbies/skills.

 

It may exist as a joke on the interwebs but I've witnessed many times in fighting and shooter games of which as soon as a female gamer appears, she is asked out on a date, offered protection in gameplay, given unwanted game tips and so on. I do not watch streamers because why would I want to watch someone play a game when I can play it myself? (But she has boobs) I got man boobs, you wanna see those? I'm sure there are some people who would like that.

I never discriminate a fellow gamer. To quote a Sarge: "you are all equal pieces of sh!t!" I'm an equal opportunity insulter.

And to finish, the only reason I would watch playthroughs is if I'm stuck in a part where I do not know where to continue.

And a rant: I really hate the drivers in my area. I've been nervous as hell to get behind the wheel since my car crash. 3 days ago, I went grocery shopping and on my way home, this red truck purposely ran a red light and I hit the breaks and stopped less than a foot away from impact. The driver starts yelling at me in Spanish of "why did you stopped? I needed money and I could have gotten from your ass you son of a bitch!" Unfortunately for him there was an officer to his right that he did not notice who was Latino and the other driver was lying about I wanted to kill him for nothing which the officer told him to STFU because he heard everything that asshole said in Spanish. Officer call for back up because he noticed I was having a panic attack and trouble catching my breath. I relaxed enough to tell the officer that I live just down the street but I'm in no condition to drive but my dad is home so if he could my dad a ride to pick up the car and go home. He agreed and will go after another officer arrives. Another cop did arrive, the cop went to get my dad, I gave my information and the Latino cop arrested the other jackass driver.

While this happens often in my area, this is a first that happened to me. I wish I had a rocket launcher with me every time some asshole tries to do this, whip it out and yell: YOU GOT A PROBLEM, MUTHAF***A?!?!?!

 

Let me put it this way: I don't normally denigrate the streamer (unless they are totally deserving of it). However, I will always belittle the person who shells out $550 a month for a streamer, especially if his family is in financial straits. To me, it's more sad that the twitch thot environment exists in the first place. I can't tell who is exploiting who. Is it the SFW cam girl, or the guys who throw money at her just for being a "nerdy girl" or whatever? Is it the platform itself? It's a hard question to answer.

 

You're doing the routine every abuse victim does where you come up with reasons why things 'aren't so bad'. This is exactly what it looks like. Its a self-programming technique that keeps abuse going. I did it myself for most of my life, with my parents, my boyfriends, my husbands, crappy friends, etc.

You call people out for thinking like this on the board, start calling yourself on it and use that to do something about it. Please!

*HUG!*

--Moony

 

I really don't want to know what's going on in the hall right now...

--Moony

 

Maybe I missed it, where in there did I say things aren't so bad?

 

Is it wrong that I do?

 

The Hall?

Is this related or another subject?

 

I didn't mean that you said that exactly. Its the 'things aren't so bad/he just needs understanding' defense is what I mean, in which abuse victims defend the abuser and undermine their own instincts to protect themselves and their offspring, and give themselves excuses that they can comfort themselves with as the abuse continues. Such as saying: "I'm afraid that he can't tell that he's being used by her because he doesn't seem right in the head." And then deflecting and distracting when people press the issue...such as focusing on one part of what I said instead of the whole. I've done that, too. Its part of the vicious cycle of abuse that keeps the abused sticking with, and going back to, their abuser. Right now it looks like you're going to keep yourself and your daughter in it until something really bad happens and none of us here wants that, but unfortunately we're powerless outside of urging you to get out. YOU'RE the one with the power to do something. And you CAN exclude him from the house and anywhere near you or your daughter, with a restraining order. Look up your local social services online, call CPS to see if they can maybe point you to resources. You're not the first to have to get out of an abusive relationship, there are public resources to help.

He he's not unaware of what he's doing. He's a psychopath as you did say. Get out of there.

--Moony

 

Not related. There was a lot of yelling outside my apartment in the hallway, and then my breadmaker creepily beeped right as it ended which made it sound like there was medical equipment in use out there (darned thing sounds like a smoke alarm/medical equipment beep). I probably need to eat something.

--Moony

 

Ah. That makes sense. Never lived in an apartment building so I have no experience of that. I've seen lots of movies and TV shows that have that but I don't know whats true and what's exaggerated.

 

You didn’t say that specifically. However, your posts read easily with a tone of giving him a pass, even if you don’t mean to sound that way. It sounds, as your posts go on, as if you excuse his behavior because he exhibits traits of psychopathy. Again, that may not be what you intended, but it’s certainly how it sounds, and I think I read your posts a lot like @Moonscream did. That’s a concerning trend.

And as @G1Prowl pointed out, we don’t know your whole story, but this sounds bad to me, and from what you’ve said it seems to be showing a lot of the red flags I was unable to identify in a previous marriage. My inability to identify those warning signs and take action nearly destroyed me and my children.

The only thing I will say is that as an adult abuse survivor... abuse doesn’t have to be physical, and emotional abuse is incredibly hard to overcome. An emotional abusive person won’t stop, and I don’t want any other child to ever have to fight with the emotional abuse my own have.

 

Everything is closed Sunday. I have to wait for tomorrow.

 

@ild, long time lurker joined just to mention... Look into financial infidelity. Sounds like he commited that act of betrayal and it may serve as grounds for divorce. One in which he will be forced to honor his financial responsibities.
Talk to a divorce lawyer asap.
Best of luck!

 

GUYS I GOT HIM TO TALK. I kept making new twitter accounts every time the girl blocked me. So, he turned around to talk to me. I said to explain it and he said I told him not to ever put any money in savings.... Ok, I mean, I'm Jewish, I'd never ever say something like that. He says I say it "all the time". I said nope, never said.

OK, THEN GET THIS, HE DID THE THING!! Word for word "When you work and make money, you can spend your money the way you want to spend it. I can spend my money how I want to spend it". AND LIKE THANK FUCK FOR YOU GUYS. Because really, I was sitting here in my chair shaking with fear to talk back, but I said "No, wrong. It's not your money" and he balled his fist up and angrily said "It's my money". I said "maybe if it was just you, but no you have a family, a child, a house, and debt on your credit card. Honestly if you paid that off, I wouldn't really care what you did with that money. But, right now we have no extra money, you have a cracked windshield, your child needs clothes, there's rust in our water and you are off giving some chick all your money. It's not extra money, use it to pay off your credit card". He started to shake his fist and then turned around and went on reddit. But, like YEAH I FUCKING PUT HIM IN PLACE AND IT WAS ALL BECAUSE YOU GUYS.

That was fun.

Thanks man, that's quite the 1st post.

 

Anybody else have an issue where this site notifies you when someone on your ignore list responds to you? It's pretty annoying because, frankly, they're on my ignore list for a reason.

 

@ILoveDinobot, nice work!   

The fact you were able to speak up and stand your ground despite being scared is good news. I should know. I tend to freeze up when I want to speak my own mind and say what I need to really say. I am not in any relationships or even married, but I tend to hesitate when it comes to speaking my mind.

So, for you to be able to do that is a great step. It also gives you a sense of power if you do that, as you just experienced. :3