I know I've mentioned it before but FUCK LIVING OUT IN THE COUNTRY. I finally dumped my satellite ISP and AT&T to get Verizon (the only carrier that gets service here) but their service has been absolute shit the past couple days. My Jetpack has a range of what seems like 4 feet, and even through it gets the exact same LGE my phone does, my phones internet is faster when I'm NOT connected to the jetpack.

I've been trying for an hour to upload a few pictures and they just won't because Verizon is being so slow. FUCK I JUST WANT FUCKING CABLE!

 

Sigh.

I got a letter about my Social Security benefits yesterday and I've been denied. They said it was because by their rules, I wasn't mentally and physically disabled enough to qualify. Good thing is I can file an appeal so I'm going to talk to my doctor who can provide me a lawyer.

I wish I could work. My car crash was 11 years ago but my broken pelvic bone never healed properly and everyday I experience pain in my lower back and hips so much so that I could not keep on working at a Mexican restaurant after many years.

In January 2018, one of my bosses passed away from cancer and his 3 brothers could not work for a couple of days so myself and 4 other former employees/friends volunteered to help with no pay for those days.

Not mental enough? I don't understand. I was diagnosed with bipolar psychosis. I hear voices in my head that never shut the fuck up. Telling me to do things, not to eat things because the food is poisoned, telling me everyone wants me dead. At the time I was 272 lbs and I ate half a taco every 2 days and after a physical check-up I was down to 187 lbs.

I see things all the time that are not real like maggots everywhere.

I'm still plagued with this. I do remember my doctor saying that I could be denied but to keep on trying.

 

@MetalRyde Don't be too discouraged. Anyone I know that has been on disability was denied multiple times. In fact I've heard it's standard for them to deny you benefits the first couple times even if you do legitimately qualify. Getting a lawyer to deal with the B.S. is the best thing you can do about it. Most will take payment only if they win and they'll take a percentage of your initial back pay which is retro active up to when you first applied.

 

So been full time with the current job now 1 year and 1 month. This place has been a regular shit show since my first CIO resigned in frustration with the higher ups around this time a year ago. A few months after he resigned, they fired four folks in my team, they dropped a consultant, and another resigned because the writing was on the wall. In this time, another would resign as she found a better position.

The first resignation was driven by a job posting. The guy was left confused and feared he was going to be fired, so he obviously was quick to find new work prior to this. We were told this would be a junior position, to which I suggested, maybe I could work with the guy, if so. The idea was considered a bit of a joke by two of the managers. I remembered this and reminded them of such after the guy quit, as they were funny enough to ask me if I was interested.

There was also another resignation, and this position was far more to my liking and interests. I was snubbed by the interim CIO because I was doing too good of a job in my current position. Best part is that the idea was revisited two months ago by one of the managers, and this guy pretended the discussion never occurred.

They would be six months without a replacement for the one position I was considered 'a joke' for.. They hired someone last month, but they fired them yesterday.

This evening, one of the managers spoke to a much younger team member about the position... Skipped me entirely.

Found out that kid declined, so they'll be asking me again.

Is it wrong of me to want to just quit now? They've dangled two much better opportunities for half a year now. The place is unstable as can be, and that job I can tell would be nothing but a sheer frustration. The only short-term gain would be a better position title and a slight pay bump. (Which I may add is BS given the previous folks who resigned and were fired were near six figures. I don't have the experience, but my current salary is but a fraction of theirs.)

If I could just find something new and much better to just leave.............. *sigh*

Not sure what to say/do tomorrow since I'll be asked about it. Or maybe I won't. But man am I tired of this job. Gotta pay them bills tho. =/

 

Take the offer for the short term. Leverage the higher pay & position for another job outside your current organisation.

 

I'll have to clarify my post better too... There have been two vacated positions. The one they keep trying to fill is a more business-oriented job that requires constant interfacing with people. I had considered the idea previously, but I wanted the other position which is a more analysis-driven and far requires less interfacing with people.


Six months ago, had a couple of folks not considered it a joke, I would have considered either post, and did just as you suggest. I didn't want to be here this long. I worked part time for years prior to this. Never was a fan of the company, and have been less so since getting here and seeing the mess it is internally.

Also, the folks who were given the position I'd rather not have had very brief stints. Axed within a month or two. The title means little if it goes with being axed a month in. I'm relatively safe if I stay in the crappier position, even if the pay stinks.

I tried reaching out to some folks to help me find other options.

 

23 hours of forced overtime this week. The paycheck will be nice but the toll on my physical and mental health is not. I ache everywhere and I'm very irritable. It's also leaving my dogs locked inside for long hours everyday, leading them to shit on the floor. I only get one day to unwind this weekend before I have to go back to work. I need a vacation.

 

"Forced overtime" WTF?

You can't be serious...even in right-to-work states, that's seriously not a thing, is it? It's great to have over time and extra cash, but as you said, the toll on your physical and mental well-being is more important. And I say this as somebody who would frequently put in 80 hour weeks in their 20's.

 

So it's just gotten around to me that my mother and an ex-girlfriend have been in contact with one another, and are spreading really abhorrent rumors about me. I'm not all that bothered by them talking and quietly trying to outdo each other with made-up stories on how I'm a horrible person, but that they are now actively telling people that I'm guilty of some pretty obscene stuff.

I'm not overly bothered by the rather sick accusations themselves - I know that if they lead to anything, the facts will be in my favor. But it's just horrible to think that anybody would think of making stuff like this up that I find so depressing. I mean, for example, I know that my mother is a real piece of work - cigarette burns, badly healed broken toes and other things are a constant reminder of just how crappy a person she is. But still...what sort of sick person do you have to be to contemplate making up these stories?

It seems that no matter how hard to try and distance myself from my mother and anybody or anything else that has been a negative impact on my life, they seem to be desperate to claw their way back into my life to try and bring me down.

It's incredibly hard to be philosophical about the whole thing and simply ignore it. I want to confront both of them and give them verbal hell - but then I realise that this exactly what they want. They want me to be angry and they want to be able to see that they've caused me to be hurt. So I won't confront them - but it robs me of the cathartic release of shouting at them and unburdening my frustrations.

 

It's a unionized factory. Pretty much everything is decided by seniority. This week in particular was special because we had to do our yearly inventory audit today. So me and the two other guys I share a job with all had to work an extra 4 hours for the first three days of the week counting our inventory to make sure the official audit went smoothly. Then if course we all had to be there from about 7-11 this morning for the actual audit. But I'm the youngest of the three of us, so I'm getting forced to work an additional 8 hours of overtime tomorrow because the company is working a small Saturday crew to pick up some extra production.

Unless we've had a really good month at work, almost all call-off's and vacations must be covered, and if no one volunteers for it, the youngest senior employee is forced to cover it. Some department that's not an issue cause there are 6 guys on each crew so someone almost always volunteers. But my job is just one guy per crew. We have an agreement amongst ourselves to always split any overtime (4 hours each) unless one of us actually wants to work all 8. But since this is a saturday crew and there is no crew after it, I'm getting forced to work all 8 of it. And unfortunately there HAS to be a Utility guy (my job) on the property anytime there's a crew working the kiln.

It's just shitty. I feel like I haven't been home at all this week. It probably wouldn't have been so bad but all of this has been the overnight shift. 7p-7a Mon-Wed, 11p-10a Thursday and now 10p-2p tonight/tomorrow.

 

Everyday it seems like it gets worse and worse for me, being out in public and around people just stresses me out and then my anxiety kicks in and I just feel horrible and irritable. I know its just making me think things out of proportions like its in actuality no big deal but my stress & anxiety makes it worse.

 

It happens I once had so much overtime at a job even after going part time it took 3 months for the change to affect my position/pay. There are asshole bosses who will disappear into the office(or even leave the building) then pawn off their work and responsablities onto other team members.

 

Holly crap, buddy - has nobody told the union that they exist to make your conditions better, not force you into working to the detriment of your health? I hope you get some time to recover and enjoy the extra earnings.

 

Like I said this week was special. I pulled in 23 hours of OT this week but on average I'd say I get maybe 4-8 per month. If that. I'm just glad Sober October is over cause this beer is going down veeeeerrrrryyyy easy tonight.

 

Just got a promotion i have been working at for a while now. Slight bump in pay, but ultimately feel all the pain and anguish was not worth it. Two others got the same role i received which were PT positions that were merged for them into FT positions (something i was told would not be possible when i was turned down so many times before)

all the managers that rooted for me and supported me are now transferred and not at my location anymore. Im left with my dept manager who simply dislikes me at a personal and unprofessional level, always looking for ways to marginalize my efforts.

ive tried working out the disconnect with this manager so many times but i just get gaslighted into feeling im at fault everytime.

when i got the promotion i get the most passive agressive and condescending congrats speech from this individual...

anyone that pushes for a more progressive and productive culture here gets transferred somewhere else or shunned despite being a company who prides itself on innovation.

It feels like a cult and are only in an inner circle if you suck up and praise the horribly incompetent decisions made by management who takes no value in competence, knowledge or skill. Only yesmen succeed and it breeds a culture of pushing off responsibilities and placing blame...

i hate my job but cant find a better one...

it gives me anxiety and leaves me exhausted and depressed... thank goodness i can share and unwind with you all here at tfw!

 

Had a manager like that once, he was a A hole. Loved to call me incompetent and scream at me to do more overtime. (Though I can understand his frustration, the day shift kept leaving most of their work for us to do on top of our own) (Still he was a jerk about it) (not to mention a moron) But he kept going over the line even cancelled some of our 10 minute breaks so we could get more work done. I'd had enough, and I wasn't the only person who felt that way. So I documented some of his crap for a week, then wrote up a letter and secretly got 1/2 the staff to sign it(the ones I knew hated him) Got him fired.
Things went one pretty well for awhile, till they hired some of those lazy assholes from day shift to be managers. It was obvious most of them didn't know what they were doing. Finally they tried to get me to work during when I had college classes, so I quit. (I was working overnight at the time so was already miserable) Finished college and was hired before I'd graduated. Things went decent to okay till this year when the company went under. Luckily I was hired shortly after my unemployment ran out and though I'm making half my old pay, it could be much worse like some of my friends from the old job are finding out. Life sucks some times, but you keep going and hopefully something better happens.

 

Got a call from my sister before work today. She was crying because my BIL is getting drug tested.

He and I work together, we don't do randoms where we work. You only get drug tested if there's an accident, or there's reasonable suspicion.

Now there are a few guys (him included) that like to use vape pens with a little more than just nicotine in them. It's not legal here yet (except medically) and obviously shouldn't be done at work. I've told him it's risky.
But that's not the issue here. They've actually been getting away with it for months and there has NEVER been an instance where they couldn't perform their jobs as expected. But there's this one guy. You all know the type. The kind of guy that follows the supervisor around like a lost puppy, constantly trying to please them. The kind that can't take charge for themselves to they latch on to every authoritative figure they come to. Yea, there's one of those on our crew. Last week he was caught snooping through someone's bag. Yesterday he had asked someone else on the crew if anybody had been "doing stuff" at work lately. Then today my BIL and one other guy have to get drug tested.

That's no coincidence. He's a God damn rat. And it's not like he gains anything from this either. We're unionized. He can't get any sort of promotion because ALL of our positions are based solely on seniority.

Now if my BIL get's fired, that's still his fault, I'm not arguing that. But if my sister, niece and unborn niece don't have food on their table because I little rat decided he wanted to start trouble, he's gonna get trouble.

UPDATE: Our employer did not handle this situation they way they are supposed to according to our contract and this case should get thrown out. According to the contract, if a supervisor has reasonable suspicion that an employee is under the influence of drugs or alcohol, they are to escort the employee off the premises immediately to be tested. However this supervisor claims to have suspected them last night, allowed them to work all night then waited until their shift to walk them out.

Company employees may not question or discipline union employees unless there is a union representative present. There was no union rep present when they were getting questioned, even though they asked for one.

This supervisor is claiming that after he suspected they were on drugs, they ran away and tried to hide. MY BIL JUST CAME BACK TO WORK FROM A BROKEN ANKLE. IT IS WIDELY KNOWN HE CAN'T RUN AT ALL.

If I didn't have the tenure and need the money, I'd quit this job. The company I work for is a disgrace.

 

Just found out that my former boss, who despite our disagreements when we worked together, is also a good friend, has several malignant brain tumours. He's just started chemo. I don't know what stage his cancer is or what the prognosis is, but I'm really shaken by the news. I'm actually close to tears and I have no idea why - I'm not that emotional a person - and it's not as if he's my family or anything.

But he is my friend - and I know that his daughter will be taking this really, really hard not to mention the rest of his family. I'm sad and worried for them, as well as my friend. He doesn't deserve this. Nobody does.

All I can say is fuck cancer.

 

There are too many good games coming out right now that I can't afford and it bums me out.

 

So my life pretty much sucks cause there is no life and going out today made me despise this city more since the food service here is terrible.
I'd love to get out to check for markdown clearance items but traffic stinks here and I can't go to Memphis cause I don't like that city and the Traffic is terrible there.


It sucks being stuck in a city that's populated by boomers and stupid folk and it's getting to where I'd LOVE to move out of the Midsouth to where it's more lively.


I'm surprised I haven't gone mad after being here for 13 years.

Thankfully I know what works to keep me sane and I am happy to say I've embraced the coming end of my time as a collector and hopefully can make some life changes next year sometime.

I just gotta stay sane till then.