I barely learned last year when I was 18!

 

Eating bacon.

 

Panicking because I am going to talk to the manager of a place I applied to later.

 

Having a small and unexplained urge to re-watch Transformers: Armada.

 

Thinking about life. I think I'm supposed to die, there's nothing good about me.

 

Wondering if I made a situation at work by mentioning I had overtime due to staying late to work a department when we’re not supposed to have overtime........now I dread that I’ll be a pariah in my section and maybe I should transfer back to cart duty, where yes I’ll be expected to keep Carts full during various weather conditions, or better yet swap stores, since word would get out that if there is a OT crackdown, I was the one who started it, even though I had 2 Hours which was over the limit......I feel everybody would hate me and that I should probably leave........exile myself somewhere where I could work and live in my shame of screwing things up

 

I can’t ride a bike and I’m 22.



As for what I’m doing I’m just waiting for my mom to get out of surgery.

 

Being distracted from making a simple sandwich.

 

Trying to track down an old Toei adaptation of Sinbad the Sailor I used to watch as a kid.

I know it was this one because while I remember sod all about the plot, I always remembered the way Sinbad and the Princess were drawn.

 

I've thought like that too, but I came to the conclusion that even if you don't see anything special about yourself, there's without a doubt someone out there who cares for you. If you don't want to live, then live for the sake of others, find resolution in the fact that you can bring other people joy. Or, you can see leaving in the primitive way and survive to reproduce, pass down your genes, and your family name.

Hope your mom will better than ever.  

 

You might want to see a therapist and consider being placed on medication- and if you're already doing that, then perhaps you should up your dosage.

Good luck.

 

Getting hyped for this.

 

Just picked up a Hot/Cold deep tissue massager from Walmart over lunch- it's my wife's birthday this weekend, and she often complains about back and leg pain after work- so I figured I'd make her birthday extra comfy by giving her a nice relaxing massage, & maybe also picking up some roses and chocolates. ^_^

 

Just watching the clock tick by to the end of the work day....

 

Kinda fuming at the fact that I bought a bottle of the same acrylic paint color (metallic peacock blue) today... gonna go back and exchange it for another tomorrow  

 

Trying to find good recipe for cupcakes with Chocolate and Bacon.

 

Preparing for my cousin's wedding this afternoon.

 

Just make normal cupcakes and put the crumbled bacon in the chocolate frosting, you need that sweet and salty combo.

 

Sitting at the USO waiting for the chow hall to open, and nursing a rather embarrassing sunburn.