Im haveing a difficult time right now, and im up and bored at 5:30 in the morning. So I figured I would ask a bunch of complete strangers what they think of my situation (hey..at least were all Transfans). I have a female friend. She's been a good friend for awhile now. Recently, we both admitted to haveing feelings for the other. We went out. We enjoyed our times together. Then her grandmother passed away. She was VERY close to her. It was two weeks ago. She told me after that happend that she "wasnt ready for a relationship, but I(she) (does) still have feelings for you(me)". Now ... today we are supposed to meet for lunch at a local place. Just as friends. The problem is...I think im in love with her. My heart speeds up, I become jealous, nervous, and joyfull all at once when she is near. I think of her quite often. When I think about loseing her, I get...very sad. Normally I do not react emotionally when it comes to the opposite sex, as Ive been hurt before, and choose not to get too attached. Its too late for that now though. Any advice? Comments?