The whole family could, really. I found out earlier today that Adrienne, my bro-in-law's sister, committed suicide late last night. I'm not sure exactly when, but the police showed up knocking on their door at around 3am in the morning. She shot herself in the chest, apparently. This wasn't the first time she'd attempted it, I know of two others for sure, but there were probably more that I'm not aware of. Thankfully, i guess. I hessitate to say that any suicide attempt isn't serious, but the others certainly appeared to be more a cry for help & attention than actually about ending her life. Both times she overdosed on sleeping pills, once in the parking lot of the Emergency room where she then walked in and passed out, the other after already calling the police and knowing they were on the way. But this... well, obviously was much different. My sister went over to her appartment this morning [alone, not sure why she didn't have me go with her] and apparently Adrienne had letters written to her family and close friends along with her Navy uniform laid out [for her to be buried in] plus the names/phone numbers of the funeral home and cemetary, along with the number of several of her old police buddies [she's a former cop] that she wanted as pallbearers... she had the whole thing planned out. I wasn't really all that close to her, but she and i are the only aunt & uncle that my sister's girls have. She was always a little strange, granted, but she was always a very nice pleasant person to be around. She and I are the Godparents of our oldest niece. When Amy and Tony first got married, even before that when they were really serious, Adrienne was around a lot. She seemed pretty well. But shortly after they got married she retired from the Navy and joined the Cleveland Police... after that she just went downhill. I don't know exacly what was wrong, but depression and hypocondria [sp?] among other things definitely seemed to play a part. She was always on some new medecine, or going to some new therapist. After about just 2, maybe 3 years on the force she retired from that and everything just... well. Everybody knew she had problems, but i guess nobody knew the extent till last night. Tony, my bro-in-law is taking it the worst. I haven't been over my sister's to see them yet, going over in the morning, but from what Amy told me on the phone he's barely said a word all day. Amy's shaken up a lot herself, her and Adrienne had become fairly close, not best friends but close. She's been handling a lot of the funeral preparations, and stuff... kind of keeping her mind off of it, I guess. Tony's mom... well, I don't know, but I'm worried about her. A lot. Her and Adrienne have very similar personalities and I think she's struggled a lot with depression too. The girls, though... Emily's 7, she's old enough to understand, but nobody's quite sure what to tell her or whether to take her to the funeral or anything. Maddy turns on Friday [great birthday, huh? the day of your only Aunt's funeral...] and Giyanna is only 2 so i don't think either of them will understand... Just... well, sorry for writing such a long post. Probably half of the stuff I shouldn't have even written, but it helps to get it out, I guess. I'm not all that close to her or upset, but I just can't get out of my mind thinking about it. I mean... what kind of pain, what could be going through your head that pulling the trigger and ending it all seems like the best option? Just please, keep tthe family, especially Tony and his mom in your thoughts and prayers. It'll help a lot I'm sure.