it really sucks to have a hobby you need a butt load of money for. it's sucks even more when all you can do is read about it and not really partake. then again, i suppose that is the nature of a hobby; buy, display, buy, display. maybe i should look at it as just toy collecting. either way, something i love is getting further and further away. it's gotten to the point where there's no meaning to it anymore. how can i look at this and still enjoy it? i'm trying to not let this little bit of happiness fade.