I've been wondering, and kind of hope to create some book or something about it someday. I mean, society pretty much labels girls this way and guys that way and you MUST do THIS if you're a girl or THAT if you're a guy. And if you don't you're either transgendered or homosexual, or something is wrong with you and there for society sees it fit to help correct you out of pity or reticule you for not being how your gender 'should' be. I by no means act like the stereotypical girl. I dress mostly like a guy, and really don't give a damn about fashion. I'll wear a nice fitting t-shirt with a decal I like on it. That's about it. I'm quite comfortable being female, and I dig men over women. I've had people both try and kindly help me with makeup and things, only to feel like I was being drug into something, kicking and screaming and feeling ashamed of myself. I've also had people be very cruel because of how I am. SO yeah, I'm wondering, as a child, and even now; Guys and girls? What did all of you play with? How did you play with your toys? Did you play any sports? Were you into any kinds of programs? Did you do what was out of the social 'norm' for your gender? And now, today, what's your calling and so on and so forth. Feel free to elaborate. This is cross-posted from my live journal, while I have mostly girls on my friends list I wanted to cross-post this here since there are a large number of men. Myself? Memories from my childhood are vague at best. But I do remember playing games of make believe, where I was animal or monster of some type chasing the school-yard children around and 'hunting' them as they played along with me. When my brother came around we'd play with the hotwheels and matchbox cars, giving them voices and personalities of their own. And possibly the Transformers (I was told he did get a few as a kid). I was given My Little Ponies and Barbies as a kid, but didn't really play too much with them. Loved Spike however. X).. (ahaha Welker). And when Jurassic Park came out, along with this neat company that made life like animals, I started playing with them. The ponies and Barbies soon became food for the dinosaurs and animals. ...And I wonder why the Barbies and MLP were suddenly "given away". I was never into Ballet, or any of the other programs my mother made me join. It was more of a trophy issue "look how great my daughter is blah blah blah". I was content playing make believe games with my toys and acting out my characters with them, or drawing for hours on end. Video games too, were a plus. And thankfully because I had vision problems as a kid. The eye doctor highly recommended video-game play as it would help my hand eye coordination. In short, as a child I acted pretty androgynous, or neither way. I never felt right when I was forced to be like a pretty-little-girl. But I didn't want to be a boy either. I was simply, me. Never cared for makeup, or girlie things. I didn't care for sports either, outside of street hockey, which I was pretty good at. But then again, I don't remember there ever being a girls league hockey teem in my area. I also played a lot of games/acting out these stories with my stuffed animals, toy animals, toy dinosaurs, and so on. This is what was really the basis for some of my characters I have today. In my pre-teens, my cousins, brother, and I would play these army like games of hide and seek. Dressing in camo and hiding in very difficult hard to get into spots in the woods and staying there for hours. Laughing to ourselves as my brother would storm around trying to find us. Today? I'd rather spend the day playing video games or working on a car or our boat... and drawing . I can't stand shopping. Seriously, when I go shopping for whatever, I quickly go to where it's at then dart out of the store/mall as quick as I can with out running. I usually don't shop for long periods of a time unless the group I'm going with offers food. (which I was told, "dude that is totally what a guy would do!") you know, endure hours of torment inside a Macy's watching whatever group I'm with babble about clothing as I day dream about the delious Outback Steak I'll be feasting on sooner or later. The whole relationship/dating thing is nothing short of a cluster-fu*k of mixed emotions on the subject. While I would like finding a guy who'd treat me well and so on and someone to share times with and ect, and regardless of their looks. I have this care-free "I can live with out it" attitude. Then again, I never really had it in the first place. So I don't really know what signs to look for when a guy is making that kind of 'contact' with me. Pepole have told me I can't find happiness with out a boyfriend, and I think it's crap. This, sadly, often gives me the lesbian label. While there's nothing wrong with homosexuals or transgenders (granted they were the -nicest- to me in High School). So yeah.. the "now" period of lacking the social girlie norms. I.. could never ever picture myself as a stay-at-home wife. I like being the protector/provider. There was this pretty interesting test I took a while back, which asked you totally off the wall questions which would make you think have NOTHING to do with gender. There were four possible answers. "male", "female", "both", and "neither". It told which gender you were psychologically, like which one did you think like most. Mine was Neither, then Male, the Both, then Female at the very bottom.