well I haven't been on here in a couple days becaue I had a very difficult doctors appointment. After a painful examination the doctors told me to get dressed and have me and my husband meet him in his office..... uh oh, he had found another large tumor on my right ovary and Ithought I wuld have to have surgery again. What he said was that this disease is officially killing me..I'm dying. He wants me to get a full hystorectomy as soon as possible. I declined....now please no stupid remarks about think about your son think about your life etc. my husband and I have been trying for a second child for four years. It is a feeling like our family is incomplete despite us having one child. We haven't yet tried IVF (It's expensive and difficult to extract eggs from tumor filled ovaries and with the meds I'm on but it is possible) I just don't want to pull the trigger on my hopes and dreams yet. I realize there is adoption. I have friends who have adopted sucessfully and ones that had to give the baby back after the mother changed her mind. I just couldn't emotionally go thourgh that. When I was pregnant with my son it was the happiest time in my life I took better care of my body then I ever had. It's why I didn't gian weight during my pregnancy because I was techincially losing weight from eating right and excerizing. The doctor said that I have two years. THings are bad and in two years they aren't sure where I will be and deicisions will need to be made within that time frame. They aren't even sute chemo or the meds are working anymore. Have another surgery and another is just over the horizon. There is still debate about whether or not to do another surgery on my right ovary. My body is so filled with pain filled scar tissue that another surgery might be worse than better. Lots of crying in the appointment. My hudband didn't though, he didn't say much of anything. The doctor said that my decision isn't a rational or intellectual one..it's an emotional one.