I am very bad when it comes to managing exterior pressure and stress in my life. I don't have a whole lot of confidence in myself so oftentimes self-doubt would creep in and even simple things would escape me as I debated with myself if what I knew is correct. I've noticed that the lack of confidence would affect my posture, my mood, my facial expressions, and ultimately, the confidence of the people around me, particularly my coworkers and superiors. I started a job at a major corporation this August, my first job at a big company in fact. All my previous work experience was with companies of around 80 people or less, and I had no idea a company of such size can be so scrutinizing of your work. Unfortunately these past months haven't been that smooth. I was evaluated by my department head managers less than 2 months in and was told I worked too slowly for their liking. They'd like to see me ask less questions and just do the job quickly. I tried my best to speed it up but it wasn't enough and I was transferred to another department within the company. I was ok with it because I wanted a fresh start and figured I was probably a poor fit in the department I was originally assigned to. The new department had good coworkers and friendly supervisors who were willing to help me. Unfortunately the department head manager, who was no doubt clued in by my last department heads, had bad impression of me right off the bat. He even told me bluntly that there were rumors about me being too slow and blah blah, and took particular interest in me. As a result I started to second guess myself in everything I do and made more mistakes than I wanted to. Some of them were bad luck, and others brought on by my inexperience and self doubt. I don't want to give excuses, perhaps I am not suited for this job, but because of my reputation I was under a microscope from day one and that has affected my job performance. Even though I have already passed the probationary period I still don't feel safe. Lately the stress from work even affected my sleep and makes me dread about going to work. I really like my job and want to work there for a long time, but I can't do it without blocking out the stress and focusing on my task. So I ask you guys if you know of a way to curtail stress. I've tried working out and it helps a little. Thanks for any help.