Guys and gals, I am sorry to have to use this board to vent, but... I really need some guidance right about now. I've been feeling absolutely miserable. I live with my parents on a family farm, I've done so much to help them out, and lately all what my dad does is just yell at me for not doing anything. WTF?! Look, here's what I practically do on the farm: in the morning, I get up to feed 10 stupid, loudmouthed calves... practically feeding them all by myself, nobody bothers helping me out. Then, I have to feed a dozen or so cattle, and then make sure that all the cows and sheep have plenty enough water. That's my morning routine, then I have to do the same thing again in the afternoon. Plus, we got three lambs that we have to feed on the bottle, and I got to feed them at noon, and occasionally in the afternoon and evening when Dad wants to get as much fieldwork done as he can. Then, I end up having to do things around the house, because she works two jobs to make ends meet. So I'm doing the laundry, the dishes, occasionally having to clean house, and put dinner on the table. I'm trying to balance my farm chores and household chores alongside my trying to work on rewriting a story I want to get published, plus when I'm attending classes at college. You know how tiring that can get, practically trying to do your own stuff while having to do so many chores for others? You'd be lucky to be able to sit down for an hour to watch TV, or get a day to go hang out with friends. Look, I want to move off the farm badly. But here's my problem: I have no job, and therefore no money to be able to afford to rent an apartment. I've tried for ages to get myself a job close to home, I filled out applications, and it's practically all to no avail. It doesn't help that I never had a job in my life, so there's no work experience. Then, I don't have anybody who I could use as a reference, nor do I have any friends working at some of the places that are hiring that I pick up applications for. That's what's been keeping me from ever getting hired, I'm afraid. But I'm telling you, I'm desperate for a job. It doesn't help matters that I'm diagnosed with Asperger's Syndrome, so despite my independence streak (like, I'm an Aries), I feel really helpless. All I can say is that I'm feeling so damn miserable, that I am desperate to get myself out of this situation. Look, I've tried talking to my parents multiple times about how I feel, but I just can't bring up the nerve to. Can somebody at least tell me what to do? Can somebody please help me out here? I could really use whatever advice, guidance, help, etc. that I could get. Sorry, but I just can't help myself. I just can't take it anymore.