Disturbing thoughts

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  1. Ktulu

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    A little worried with myself over something that may seem silly, but basically, I notice myself having a lot of very unsettling thoughts, imagining things suddenly with no prior thought, things that I would never honestly want to do, and things I feel I would absolutely not think of otherwise and it's really starting to get me.

    One of the tamer examples of this I'm comfortable enough to share with you is that I just now, out of nowhere, saw the scenario of my mother turning on her computer, which has a fairly large wide screen monitor, only to be greeted by a closeup shot of something I will not disclose which is the subject of a very irrational yet overpowering fear for her. This would be the same as me turning on my computer to see a giant cobra in close up glaring back at me, as I have a terrible phobia of them, to the point that I'm unable to see photos of them without feeling incredible anxiety and fear. The thing I imagined being set as my mother's wallpaper is something that is absolutely unsettling to her in an extreme way, and I would take absolutely no joy in doing something like that to her, nor would I ever consider it. All the same, the scenario randomly popped into my head.

    As I said, that is a very tame example of what I'm talking about. I'm sort of concerned to find that I'm capable of various cruel/disturbing thoughts, and I'm simply wondering if this is something that some of you may xperience as well. As long as I'm not alone, I suppose I'll feel better about it. So, what is it, am I a goofy bastard making too much of something, or am I a loon?

    Thanks for taking the time to read and reply.
     
  2. Rodimus Major

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    Don't worry about it, it happens to everyone. Or at least to me. And obviously anyone who makes action or horror movies. Being able to concieve of thoughts that you would never carry out is normal. I for example, when I'm driving and see someone walking, sometimes suddenly imagine myself swerving and running them over for no reason. I would never DO that, it's just something that pops in my head, then I move on.
     
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    I'm the oppistite. Not the thought part, the content part.

    I will get the same randomized type brain farts, they come, in clear and are either good or... well, random.


    Example, I'm packing away my homework when I think what I would look like if I had a long fuzzy beard.

    The same happens with dreams, like the one I had where me and David Hasslehoff raced to the top of mount Everest in helicopters.


    My point is, it is natural for your brain to compile plausible, yet impossible senarios like that on base settings, it's part of mental development. Especialy if it has little to proccess, to fill the unused void it creates the odd senarios.

    Your not crazy, probobly just bored. Go occupy yourself and litteraly, try and think happy thoughts, give your mind a template!
     
  4. Ktulu

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    I'm hardly ever in a state where my mind would need to fill in blanks and such if that's what you're implying. I'm always worried with something or just busy in general working on things or immersing myself in some interest of mine. I do get bored, as we all do from time to time, but I'm never in a blank state at all. I'm the type that can't ease their thoughts at night enough to even settle in to comfortably fall asleep.

    Rodimus Major - thanks, I've thought many of the same things as to these occurrences being normal and such, but I just wanted to share and get some opinions here.
     
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    Or write them down and become the next Stephen King.
     
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    It's not concious blankness, I'm not saying your dumb. How do you think people get ideas, or when your writing a test at an educational facility, and your on page two and then suddenly remember one of the answers on page one...

    Even as I type this, my mind is doing just what you described, minus the horror, and is the same thing I described, unless my head isn't screwed-on right.
     
  7. Ktulu

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    It would seem to me there's a separation from brainstorming for ideas, considering what to say in conversation, going over what ifs pertaining to your life, or imagining things/scenarios such as what might happen next as you're writing a story or any relatively common thing like that and thinking horrible/cruel things seemingly out of nowhere with absolutely no discernible reasoning or inspiration behind it. I'm not saying you're wrong at all, it's something I've considered myself, I'm just trying to make sure I don't write it off too easily if that's understandable.
     
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    Who said anything about brainstorming? I meant like when you just think: "Hey! Tahat's a great idea!" without any prior influence.


    I think it's called impulse or something like that, don't know the word.
     
  9. aussiehippy

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    If you want any reassurance Ktulu, I also have occasional inexplicable thoughts about horrible things, either done by myself or done to myself. I find myself wondering the outcome of disturbing events.

    I don't imbue these thoughts with much importance though. I feel confident enough in my own moral framework to know that I would never consciously act these thoughts out.

    I think that for someone to act out any disturbing thoughts they have with no thought for consequence or morality there must be some imbalance in the parts of their consciousness that regulate such behaviour. I guess that would mean that they were insane.

    I'm generally nice to everybody, don't really have a mean streak or cruel side, yet I still have these kind of thoughts.

    I wouldn't worry unless you find yourself acting on any of these disturbing thoughts.
     
  10. Grimlock_13

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    Totally agree. I think most people have some thoughts like that now and again. Or maybe it's just us that populate this board!:lol 

    Oh and I definitely sympathize about the snake phobia...I'm the same exact way. I get completely freaked out by pictures and images of snakes...I refused to go see Snakes on a Plane for that reason. In fact I'm surprised I was able to get BM Night Viper and BWN Cohrada since they affect me so much. Creepy things.
     
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    I think I know what you mean...sudden thoughts of doing horrible, cruel things that you would never do, I used get those a lot.

    Like stomping puppies or throwing my cat in the microwave - horrid things. The thoughts just pop up out of nowhere, and it scares me a bit, because the thought of such things makes me absolutely sick, and it worries me that my brain would come up with the specific circumstances and outcomes of doing things like that.

    I'm glad to see I'm not the only one. I don't get them as often, because now every time I get an idea like that, I don't dwell on it and I block it out. I can almost feel it coming on, and I immediately and deliberately think of something else.

    That thread about the kids that put that puppy in the oven didn't help at all, though. I wish people wouldn't post shit like that.

    I will admit though, I would be tempted to change someone's wallpaper to something I knew they hated. I'm not heartless and cruel, but I can be a bastard. :ev: 
     
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    its hardcore porn, isn't it?
     
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    Must be human nature. I read your post and thought for a second of either posting in this thread or IMing a big-ass pic of a cobra, fangs showing and all. But since I didn't want to be a total dick, I didn't.
     
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    I hate to play the age-card, 'cause I'm not one of those 'when you get a little older' people, but the brain's funky. At 21, random connections and development are still probably going on more so than folks who are a little older. I don't know, I guess it's like your brain is channel surfing. I know I used to have random flashes, but almost never nowadays and I'm only 25.

    On the other hand, I'm constantly randomly remembering shit from overseas, which is a real pain in the ass.
     
  15. Ktulu

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    pscoop :( 

    Anyway, thanks for the reassurance guys. I was fairly sure it wasn't much to be alarmed about but I just wanted to make sure and figured you guys could help with that, so again, thanks.
     
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    Hey, I didn't do it. I was merely pointing out my example of a disturbing thought. Much like you had a thought of something you didn't want your mother to be subjected to. The important lesson here is not to act on the disturbing thoughts we have.
     
  17. Ktulu

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    Oh I know :D  My sadface was a sadface of joy
     
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    Oh good. For some reason "sadface of joy" made me :lol 
    BTW thanks for the image of John Popper spanking it in the other thread. Future nightmares will comence.
     
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    If I'm near anything breakable, my mind will always bring up an image of my leg swinging out and kicking it all, smashing it.

    It actually causes me pain to concentrate hard enough to block the image out.
    Its really annoying.

    Also, I always get the image of people following me if Im out at night alone. Im constantly looking over my back, and peering into the darkness, half expecting something to lunge out at me.
     
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    Whenever I'm around fat people, I imagine a giant blade coming down from the sky to cleave off all that excess flesh. That's about it though.
     

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