Hey friend,
I have felt just like myself so I know what you are talking about. I know it seems that you think you should do the GROWN UP thing but to me everyone has to have some type of hobby that they do. Well our is transformers and well mine is video games as well and do you have any consoles anymore or are you just out of playing video games anymore. I have a PS3 and if you have 1 maybe we could hook up on a game sometime online. Let me know friend.